You Are My World
for my feathered babies
you are my world
my reason to
emerge on my darkest days
to smile on my brighter days
you still inspire me
every single day of my life
I love you
and you will always be
my babies
my life
my world
For Pets Loved and Lost
they taught me
teach me
so much daily
more than I
can ever
hope to express
humility
gentleness
kindness
pure love
they made me
make me smile
they made me
make me cry
each bereavement
was
and is
just that
each bereavement
each bereavement
so much too much
simply too much
grief
Brief Song
for Klaus
looking at a photograph now
remembering
your sweet brief song
such sunny days
enjoyed on "borrowed time"
each day a gift
a miracle
to cherish forever
to truly appreciate
Jimi's Community of Feathered
Angels
It was all built around you:
This community of feathered angels.
Our beautiful yellow-face blue
-
Reunited finally with Madge,
And with Donna.
Sweet Jimi, we will always love
you,
Miss you,
Honour you.
You are still at the centre –
The heart –
Of this community of feathered
angels.
Jimi, Eric, Don
mostly written on 23/08/10, the day on which our budgie Jimi died - finished
on 24/08/10
To write poems for Jimi, Eric
or Don –
That would make this real - my sweet birds really gone.
The pain would overwhelm me. I’d be destroyed.
What passes for my “life”
would become devoid
Of meaning. Yet, I must go through the motions.
I need to block out all of my
emotions –
Apparently – but I’m
not sure that I can,
Not this time – not again. This is much more than
I can bear. Or accept.
Treasured
Friends
written
on 19/07/10
Just lost Eric
the star finch – treasured friend.
Our oldest resident
budgie
has hurt her
foot.
Tell me: Will
these sorrows never end?
Will Jimi budgie
mend?
There are so
few people – so very few –
on whom I can
depend,
but I have all
these birds:
such treasured
friends.
To See the Vet Today
In loving memory of Linda the cockatiel (-16/06/10)
She
did not want to go
To
see the vet today.
She
chose her quiet time,
To
gently slip away.
Darling
Linda, you were loved.
You
are loved.
We
must now place you in a little box –
Rather
than the little traveling cage –
And
take you to see the vet today.
Janis
In loving memory of Janis the budgie (- May 2010)
Sweet
Janis, all my happy words are blocked,
and
yet you were a happy little bird.
I
owe you more than this depressive state,
in
which I now reside.
You
never gave up chirping, flying,
climbing,
preening, eating.
Sweet
Janis, you taught me so much. I love you.
Essence
In loving memory of Essence budgie (2009 – 30/04/10)
Essence,
stay forever in my heart.
I
don’t know how to just move on.
I
need to fall apart.
I
am shutting out a hostile world,
full
of people who don’t understand,
and
most of whom don’t care.
Sweet
Essence, I love you so much –
and
I will keep you save forever,
in
my heart.
Deenie
In
loving memory of Deenie budgie (2009 – April 2010)
You
left so soon, my little one.
Was
there more that I could have done?
I
only pray that you had fun,
here
with us, so briefly.
Four
precious months, we had you here.
Now,
darling Deenie, you have gone.
You
left so soon, my little one.
Not The End
In
loving memory of Apple the linnie, (2005 - 11/09)
Apple,
I love you –
what
can I say?
Sweet,
gentle parakeet,
I
love you so much –
and
I lost you yesterday.
And
Sparkey the budgie lost his closest friend.
Yet,
now you are in Heaven,
along
with Pear.
That
is my only comfort:
the
certainty that this is
not
the end,
the
vague hope that, in time,
my
shattered heart will mend.
Davy
In
loving memory of Davy budgie (2006 - 08/09/09)
I
see you daily,
in
Jimi's flights -
in
Debbie's smiles.
You
took one final - your ultimate -
vertical,
upward flight,
in
true "Davy-style":
Heaven-bound.
Pete
In
loving memory of Pete the zebra finch (-29/08/09)
“This chestnut-flanked
white will never make a show bird.”
I
feel blessed
to
appreciate what the
so-called
“experts” cannot:
your
sweetness, your Pete-ness,
your
purity, your patience,
and
your joy upon entering
each
fresh day.
Your
lack of feathers
make
me love you more.
And
so it is time now
to
say, “Goodbye.”
Thank
you for sharing, Pete.
Thank
you for reaching me,
teaching
me –
being
a friend.
Right on Cue
Bridge Centre = Basingstoke
CMHT (Community Mental Health Team)
RIP Davy (July 2006 – 08/09/09) and Pete (DOB unknown - 29/08/09)
Just buried a sweet little
zebra finch named Pete.
This morning, budgie Davy
lost his battle, too –
and the Bridge Centre
have cancelled
my appointment,
right on cue.
And magick failed,
and prayers did, too.
I am broken –
lost for words –
and the Bridge Centre
have cancelled,
right on cue.
Emerald Light
Dedicated to Emerald (“Emmy”) the budgie, who
passed away on 13/11/06, and is still missed every day
Angels
protect us;
Guide
us;
Align
us
With
the divine.
Here
and now, I visualise
Raphael’s
healing emerald light,
Feeling
safe in the knowledge
That
angels are
Protecting
me.
Little Lehi
In loving memory of Lehi, the Bengalese/Society finch (-25/05/09)
One
who lived her life so quietly and gently –
she
slipped beyond this life
in
quite a similar style.
If
I close my eyes
and
visualise
you,
my lovely little Lehi –
can
I have you back with me,
if
only for a little while?
Amos
In loving memory of Amos the canary (-22/01/09)
A
seed dish awaits you in Heaven.
Yet,
Amos, I don’t want to say, “Goodbye.”
When
your music stopped,
I
knew that something was wrong.
I
could never forget you. I don’t want to try.
Greyscale Angel
In
loving memory of Bert the budgie (2006 – 17/12/08)
My
greyscale angel –
without
you,
there
will always be an empty space.
A
beauty, a humility –
your
gentle bravery, to the end –
which
can never be replaced.
You’ve
been husband, brother, parent,
within
your immediate family.
To
me, you will always be my baby.
I
held you in my hands –
felt
your heart beat a few times, rapidly –
then
cease.
My
darling greyscale angel,
my
darling Bert –
one
final energetic flight,
and
now you will forever
Rest
in Peace.
Part
of God's Great Plan?
I cannot
watch his suffering in silence,
and yet
I can’t not.
It is
hard to witness one so innocent,
so kind,
so pure, in pain – again – and still believe
in God,
gods, goddesses, angels,
any sort
of Higher Power –
and still believe that the source of Higher Power
necessarily
always has
our best
interests at heart.
Merri
In loving memory of Merri the Bengalese finch (2004-29/11/08)
Merri
by name and merry by nature
Sweet
angel in shades of chestnut and white
So
suddenly
Too
suddenly
Gone
In
my heart’s eye, you will always be
A
cheeky little escapee
Perched
on the top of that cupboard,
On
that picture frame,
On
the curtain rail – such a popular
Choice
with all of you birds
Merri
by name and merry by nature
You
remain so alive in my heart
Lineolated
Angel
In loving memory of Pear the linnie (2005-02/07/08)
We’d
four new finches. All was well.
Then
sudden panic – living Hell.
The
horror turns into despair.
I
can’t believe we’ve lost you, Pear.
I
prayed for you, but you still died.
I
felt my prayers had been denied.
Apple’s
alone now – so unfair.
Just
can’t believe we’ve lost you, Pear.
I
miss you every single day.
The
pain will never go away.
Your
spirit’s with me everywhere.
Still
can’t believe we’ve lost you, Pear.
It’s
Apple’s strength that gives me hope.
For
Apple’s sake, I have to cope.
This
feels like more than I can bear.
I’ll
always love you, darling Pear.